Damn, my hands shook as I consumed the dose of methamphetamines, having no idea that this would be my last high. Then something unexplainable happened: there was a flicker of blue; my head started to spin, I anticipated I was going to vomit; seeing for the first time, the destruction I had caused in life right there in front of my eyes. Why was this happening? Morbid thoughts of life and death swirled in my mind. Eventually, my head ached from the awareness of what had happened to my life, destroying everything in my path. How did I let my life get so out of control? As a result, I knew right then I had to do an about-face; I did not start out in my life with the intentions of becoming a desperate, deceitful drug addict, and selling my soul to the devil. The truth was that losing myself is what had happened in my life. Some people would see this as a defeat; nevertheless, it is the complete opposite of that. From that moment on I knew life would never be like it was again.
I could not cry out to God since I hated Him. That split second of clarity is a true success in an addict's life. There is no set of rules about when or where this will happen. Taking a deep breath and dialing my sponsor's number was the only thing I knew to do. With a sigh, she verbalized …show more content…
Life has not been the same ever since. Life is not always painless, and my past tries to come back and haunt me. Instead, I strive to do whatever it takes not to go back to that life. Therefore, this day was one of my biggest victories in my life. Thanking God for it every day, and I no longer have hate for God. Grateful for the life I have today; I am a happily married woman, work a full-time job, just bought a new house and take college courses at night. No longer am I lost in the hell I had
I could not cry out to God since I hated Him. That split second of clarity is a true success in an addict's life. There is no set of rules about when or where this will happen. Taking a deep breath and dialing my sponsor's number was the only thing I knew to do. With a sigh, she verbalized …show more content…
Life has not been the same ever since. Life is not always painless, and my past tries to come back and haunt me. Instead, I strive to do whatever it takes not to go back to that life. Therefore, this day was one of my biggest victories in my life. Thanking God for it every day, and I no longer have hate for God. Grateful for the life I have today; I am a happily married woman, work a full-time job, just bought a new house and take college courses at night. No longer am I lost in the hell I had