An example of this would be when Esther picks up a newspaper and it includes stories of suicide which then leads Esther to try and end her existence in the bell jar. Esther sees a headline “SUICIDE SAVED FROM 7-STORY LEDGE!,” and she starts to think about what would be a safe distance to die via falling from a building. The thoughts in Esther’s mind increase sharply, altering her mental state until she decides that she wants to end herself because she feels that no matter where she was it would be the same “sitting under the same bell jar,” and “stewing in [her] own air” (185). Esther makes the decision that she wants to escape the bell jar and decides to research ways that she can obliterate herself. Esther thinks that the ideal way to do it would be to “open [her] veins in a warm bath,” but when she tries she can’t and realizes that what she wants to kill wasn't on the outside “but somewhere else, deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get,” (147). Esther realizes that she wants to kill her thoughts because they enclose her in the madness of her
An example of this would be when Esther picks up a newspaper and it includes stories of suicide which then leads Esther to try and end her existence in the bell jar. Esther sees a headline “SUICIDE SAVED FROM 7-STORY LEDGE!,” and she starts to think about what would be a safe distance to die via falling from a building. The thoughts in Esther’s mind increase sharply, altering her mental state until she decides that she wants to end herself because she feels that no matter where she was it would be the same “sitting under the same bell jar,” and “stewing in [her] own air” (185). Esther makes the decision that she wants to escape the bell jar and decides to research ways that she can obliterate herself. Esther thinks that the ideal way to do it would be to “open [her] veins in a warm bath,” but when she tries she can’t and realizes that what she wants to kill wasn't on the outside “but somewhere else, deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get,” (147). Esther realizes that she wants to kill her thoughts because they enclose her in the madness of her