Like Mother, Like Daughter I am sitting on a wet bench. Of course, it would occur to me to go to a park right after the rain, all alone while the rays of the sun start to reappear making the park, which looked so dull and empty upon arriving, look full of life and color. Its warmth grows this sensation within me as if everything will be okay. How is this possible? I walked myself into this park with an emotion that pressed against my chest; it feels as if a thick liquid was replacing my blood and changing my body to feel heavy. It was hard to walk. My thoughts are overwhelming. I choose not to think. I forget who I am and why I came here. All I could think of at this point is that I am blue.
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I think she is in pain because just a year ago I was a perfect reflection of her. A Fighter; unaware of my emotions and thoughts; resistant to anything that doesn't resonate with my beliefs; in pain, and in denial. You would think that your parents would be able to aid you to come into peace with pain and guide you to a better life. The reality is that some have not come to terms with their own, so their best advice is to ignore and suppress those painful thoughts. I know in my heart that her anger and frustration is aimed at me although it is there because she doesn’t know how to help and she feels …show more content…
It doesn’t matter what job you want; you’re only allowed to go for a steady nine to five job or disapproval, and shame will become your middle name. I wasn’t surprised to find that out of all 38 of my cousins I am the only one going for an Art Major. Which in my family views as a waste of time. Every other cousin decides on accounting, nursing, dental assistant and so on; even though they hate their job. Everyone in the family is happy and proud they made such a wise decision. I guess that approval is worth their happiness. Can’t they see? Approval from family or peers makes you feel as if you are a part of something. It makes you feel important, wanted, and accepted which in the end only makes you temporarily happy. It's pretty simple, we do things that we don’t want to do to get approval from loved ones to be happy. Why do something you don’t want to do or stop doing what you want to do to be happy when you can do what makes you happy right then and there? Why not follow your dreams, and be true to yourself? I don’t blame my mother or family. These ideas have been passed on and on for generations. Why question them, right? My mom is only teaching me what she knows and is disappointed to find that her daughter who was once obedient has gone rogue. No matter how much I try, I can’t live my life the way everyone else in my family chooses
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"Do you want to know what is wrong with you? …show more content…
I think she is in pain because just a year ago I was a perfect reflection of her. A Fighter; unaware of my emotions and thoughts; resistant to anything that doesn't resonate with my beliefs; in pain, and in denial. You would think that your parents would be able to aid you to come into peace with pain and guide you to a better life. The reality is that some have not come to terms with their own, so their best advice is to ignore and suppress those painful thoughts. I know in my heart that her anger and frustration is aimed at me although it is there because she doesn’t know how to help and she feels …show more content…
It doesn’t matter what job you want; you’re only allowed to go for a steady nine to five job or disapproval, and shame will become your middle name. I wasn’t surprised to find that out of all 38 of my cousins I am the only one going for an Art Major. Which in my family views as a waste of time. Every other cousin decides on accounting, nursing, dental assistant and so on; even though they hate their job. Everyone in the family is happy and proud they made such a wise decision. I guess that approval is worth their happiness. Can’t they see? Approval from family or peers makes you feel as if you are a part of something. It makes you feel important, wanted, and accepted which in the end only makes you temporarily happy. It's pretty simple, we do things that we don’t want to do to get approval from loved ones to be happy. Why do something you don’t want to do or stop doing what you want to do to be happy when you can do what makes you happy right then and there? Why not follow your dreams, and be true to yourself? I don’t blame my mother or family. These ideas have been passed on and on for generations. Why question them, right? My mom is only teaching me what she knows and is disappointed to find that her daughter who was once obedient has gone rogue. No matter how much I try, I can’t live my life the way everyone else in my family chooses