Lif's Life-Personal Narrative

He yanks me from my bed and shoves me into the bathroom; I try screaming for help but I know that no one can help me. I am alone, trapped in this endless abusive relationship that I can’t seem to let go of. He locks the door and tells me to shut up or my mom will hear me, and I quickly obey to his rules. I feel the warm wet tears rushing down my face as I begin the agonizing process with my head in the toilet, throat burning, heart aching… as Ed began to slowly take away my entire self-worth one piece at a time. When Ed gave me this willpower over food and told me how perfect he could make me I knew I wanted him to be part of my life. I wish I could go back in time and realize that all Ed wanted was to be me and to take away all that is important to me, my grades, my happiness, my friends, my life. …show more content…
Knock one over, make one slip up, and everything else comes crashing down. “Oh you forgot to do your homework?” he’d tell me. “You are so worthless and look at you, you are a pig! No one likes you… that’s ok though let’s just go binge on some of that Halloween candy when you get home, it will make everything better I promise.” Never in a million years did I ever think my life would’ve turned out this way. I don’t even remember what my life was like before my eating disorder… Every day I look at my friends, my family, even strangers, and I wonder what it’s like to be a normal eater like them. I often feel like I’m crazy. Every day is a struggle to even get out of bed, put a smile on my face and just pretend like everything is ok. I don’t know what it is like to have energy or what happiness feels like anymore. Why is it so difficult for me to sit and not eat everything in sight, to obsess about if I’m going to eat, or what I’m going to eat? I was left as a victim to Ed’s endless cycle of pain, frustration and