Letter To My Abusive Father Research Paper

My final project consisted of a letter to my abusive father. In the letter I talk about the way he has made me feel my whole life. The genera I guess that mine had was sadness and loneliness. The feeling of being trapped is such a huge problem in my relationship with my dad and he fact that he is extremely manipulative,controlling and strongly opinionated. In my letter to him the main concepts talk about the sadness I kept inside for many years and the strong urge to keep everything “Normal” when in reality nothing was normal. In my writing and throughout the class my shadow kept popping up and the more I looked into myself is that I started to notice that my shadow is my dad. The controlling nature of him and the strong instinct to keep me where I am. Dealing with this kind of issue for so many years made me numb to a point where I just felt like this was just how it's going to be I couldn't escape it. …show more content…
I felt like maybe this was supposed to happen to me. I mean was doing well in school and I seemed happy. At first I wasn't depressed or at least I didn't think so. I kept hiding myself;burying my pain and sorrow trying to cling for happiness wherever I could find it even in a brief moment. This caused a very bad self perception of myself. I never realized how low my self esteem truly was until I got out of there. I felt like I needed my family and I depended on them for reassurance. When I escaped I felt panicked and stressed. I felt like I was doing something wrong and bad; because of all of the years of mental abuse I went through. My body seemed to reject my new found freedom and caused me to become depressed and for a long time I suffer with insomnia and I would feel sick just thinking about