In thinking of personal change right off the bat I personally view it as a point in time in my life where I felt like things took a turn and shifted. At the age of nineteen, going into my sophomore year of college I never realized how much change has occurred in my life until I start doing reflection and thinking about events that have motivated me into being the leader that I am proud to be today. It is truly a multitude of events that have led to be forming my personal definition of leadership. However, in this essay, I am going to discuss how my father's passing shifted my life, since it forced me to grow up at 15. While also sparking a flame within me to be more self-driven and recognize my adoration for relationship building in leadership.
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Nevertheless, to clarify me being the youngest of six brothers and one sister when this event suddenly happened, I had no way of recognizing and preparing for how it would affect me. In thinking of preparations and getting things together I found myself lost and essentially feeling sorry for myself. Constantly wondering why in my sophomore year of high school I would have this major void that I would want to always fill. The reason I view them as a fear to change is the simple fact that I was just that—afraid. I had no idea what it meant to run a household and be a man at that age. All my brothers are grown up and moved out the house leaving my twin brother and I with my mom. I found myself making my own dinner some nights to making sure my mom took her medicine. This required me to make a change and shift the type of leader I was in the household. In connecting this back to the readings Quinn states that “we must confront our own immaturity, self-ishness, and lack of courage” Quinn, 1996, p. 37). In confronting our own immaturities, we can grow. I had previously lacked courage but because of this event happening in my life at a such an early age it served as a motivation for me to grow up at such an early age and become the type of leader that my father could be proud of in just about every façade I include myself
Nevertheless, to clarify me being the youngest of six brothers and one sister when this event suddenly happened, I had no way of recognizing and preparing for how it would affect me. In thinking of preparations and getting things together I found myself lost and essentially feeling sorry for myself. Constantly wondering why in my sophomore year of high school I would have this major void that I would want to always fill. The reason I view them as a fear to change is the simple fact that I was just that—afraid. I had no idea what it meant to run a household and be a man at that age. All my brothers are grown up and moved out the house leaving my twin brother and I with my mom. I found myself making my own dinner some nights to making sure my mom took her medicine. This required me to make a change and shift the type of leader I was in the household. In connecting this back to the readings Quinn states that “we must confront our own immaturity, self-ishness, and lack of courage” Quinn, 1996, p. 37). In confronting our own immaturities, we can grow. I had previously lacked courage but because of this event happening in my life at a such an early age it served as a motivation for me to grow up at such an early age and become the type of leader that my father could be proud of in just about every façade I include myself