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Journal Entry “Two years and forty days later”
Rebecca Smith
English 111
There I was laying in my bed crying as hard as I could cry blaming myself. I was yelling and cursing at my selfing thinking “why in the hell did you do this to yourself again, Becky? You’re so stupid, you knew he would cheat… again”. I was so deceived by my own mind thinking that someone like him would be able to be in a stable relationship without cheating on someone. I thought at that time he really, REALLY loved me, man was I fooled. I was nineteen and for the last two years and thirty four days of my life, I was in love with a man who didn’t love me sufficiently enough to keep me. I remember the moment very vividly. I walked out of his truck and was walking
English 111
There I was laying in my bed crying as hard as I could cry blaming myself. I was yelling and cursing at my selfing thinking “why in the hell did you do this to yourself again, Becky? You’re so stupid, you knew he would cheat… again”. I was so deceived by my own mind thinking that someone like him would be able to be in a stable relationship without cheating on someone. I thought at that time he really, REALLY loved me, man was I fooled. I was nineteen and for the last two years and thirty four days of my life, I was in love with a man who didn’t love me sufficiently enough to keep me. I remember the moment very vividly. I walked out of his truck and was walking