“ Oh Johnny, don’t die, please don’t die…” He lay on the bed pale faced and still, I slid down the wall. In BEWILDERMENT, I thought, this is what I get, sure, I’ve screwed up, but, don’t punish Johnny for my mistakes, it should’ve been me. Johnny kept me sane, happy, without him I’ve got nothing to care about, nothing to live for.. I never thought this would happen, and if it did I thought it would’ve been me. I had a burning sensation in my eyes, tears. It felt like I was running out of air, holding in sobs.I can’t let anyone see me like this, BAWLING in the corner like a baby. I needed to get out… I began to run down the hospital halls. No one cares about Johnny as much as I do, he never knew, I never told him. Somehow I’m disappointed in
