Cross until he believes his lack of awareness of “reality” caused the death of Ted Lavender, one of the men under his command.” (Andreason p.1). Ted Lavender, one of Jimmy’s men, was a friend to many in the squad, but his loss affected no one more than how it impacted Cross. The Lieutenant blames himself for Lavender's death so much, that he burns all the photographs and letters from Martha so he will never become distracted again. He holds soley himself accountable for the death of Lavender, no others. As stated in the novel, “He had loved Martha more than his men, and as a consequence Lavender was now dead, and this was something he would have to carry like a stone in his stomach for the rest of the war.” (O’Brien p.16), Cross blames himself and the love he carries for Martha as the reason Ted
Cross until he believes his lack of awareness of “reality” caused the death of Ted Lavender, one of the men under his command.” (Andreason p.1). Ted Lavender, one of Jimmy’s men, was a friend to many in the squad, but his loss affected no one more than how it impacted Cross. The Lieutenant blames himself for Lavender's death so much, that he burns all the photographs and letters from Martha so he will never become distracted again. He holds soley himself accountable for the death of Lavender, no others. As stated in the novel, “He had loved Martha more than his men, and as a consequence Lavender was now dead, and this was something he would have to carry like a stone in his stomach for the rest of the war.” (O’Brien p.16), Cross blames himself and the love he carries for Martha as the reason Ted