Different Types Of Saddness

Saddness is a feeling that we 're all familiar with, in some aspect. There are many types, many degrees of sadness, and it 's a feeling that we all experience differently. I have been face to face with sadness. It has beaten me down, and never helped to pick me back up. Instead, it 's brought me lower and lower with each and every attempt i have made to stand. This is what the professionals call "major depressive disorder", mine topped off with some anxiety and eating disorders. I can tell you what it 's like to not leave a room for three months at a time, to let someone in, once a day, to exchange your pee bucket for something to eat, through a crack in the door. I can tell you what it 's like to have your mother tackle you to the floor in an …show more content…
I was sad for my mother, because even at such a young age, i saw how my father was treating her, and how upset that made her, and I knew something wasnt right. One night I watched him throw her around our living room, and beat her head off of the floor. When my mother finally got to me she just held me, and apologized. She says I looked up at her, from her lap, with teary eyes and said, "mommy, my teeth are chattering and I cant stop it". That is fear. Ive learned sadness can go hand in hand with fear, just like depression can come with anxiety. Anxiety is what i get when anyone raises their voices, or accidentally bumps into me in a crowded hallway, because i remember those things from the not so friendly sting of my father. Sadness, fear, and anxiety, was also what i felt at 7 when my dad left my mom for the mistress he got pregnant; or should i say, the family friend that was only one year older than my fathers oldest daughter. Me and my mother had to start a new life on our own, a life where she got pregnant too, and i was now expecting a brother, and sister, at the same time. i was 8 years old, explaining my entore life story to strangers when they would say, "oh,