What is doubt? Doubt is the feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction. Growing up many people struggle with self-doubt, it just so happens that I am one of those people that struggle. All my life I wondered if I was really doing the right thing with myself, never really sure if I was good enough. I was always battling with standing for something, never really sure what my purpose was. So how exactly do you overcome something that seems to have a hex on your future? This is the mental struggle of my self-doubt.
It started when I was first coming into this country, my mother was all I really needed , I wasn’t really as close as I was with my dad as I was with my mom and sisters. This may as well be the reason why self-doubt is my biggest …show more content…
With act three came more flaws and tears. Most children have pimples as teenagers, it was normal. For me I didn’t really get any pimples, I had a skin condition known as Folliculitis. It was located on the back of my head. Kids tended to tease me a lot and I hated myself for it. My parents told me to stop caring about it but it was never that easy. People said things like “ew”, “you have Ebola”, “why do you have aids on your neck”. I cried daily about this, and I didn’t really want to go to school. I hated myself, I can remember I used to buy paint to try to color it in. I tried everything, creams, oils, doctors, but nothing helped at all. It was so bad to the point that I had 3 separate suicide attempts. Act three was my dark side. This made my self-doubt horrible. This also led to me getting in trouble and fighting. I was kicked out of school twice, both of the time on a one year suspension. I was sent to an alternative school. Even there I still got teased. So, how exactly did I overcome my self-doubt? I got help from a person I’d like to call my older sister. My older sister helped me by boosting my self-esteem, she made sure I had the best clothes and made sure I never felt out of place. She really had my back, she was my mentor, my superhero, my
It started when I was first coming into this country, my mother was all I really needed , I wasn’t really as close as I was with my dad as I was with my mom and sisters. This may as well be the reason why self-doubt is my biggest …show more content…
With act three came more flaws and tears. Most children have pimples as teenagers, it was normal. For me I didn’t really get any pimples, I had a skin condition known as Folliculitis. It was located on the back of my head. Kids tended to tease me a lot and I hated myself for it. My parents told me to stop caring about it but it was never that easy. People said things like “ew”, “you have Ebola”, “why do you have aids on your neck”. I cried daily about this, and I didn’t really want to go to school. I hated myself, I can remember I used to buy paint to try to color it in. I tried everything, creams, oils, doctors, but nothing helped at all. It was so bad to the point that I had 3 separate suicide attempts. Act three was my dark side. This made my self-doubt horrible. This also led to me getting in trouble and fighting. I was kicked out of school twice, both of the time on a one year suspension. I was sent to an alternative school. Even there I still got teased. So, how exactly did I overcome my self-doubt? I got help from a person I’d like to call my older sister. My older sister helped me by boosting my self-esteem, she made sure I had the best clothes and made sure I never felt out of place. She really had my back, she was my mentor, my superhero, my