Interpretation Of Consciousness-Personal Narrative

I struggled with Mary’s interpretation of consciousness at first. I could not put my finger on it but something about it rubbed me the wrong way and I dismissed it. But dismissing something in my head is far simpler than reasoning it out in writing.
I have had various soft contact with aliens in dreams, mediations and once I even thought I saw something. All incidences were quite out of the norm and left such a strong emotional signature that on some level I understood it was more than mere imagination. However, I was still waiting for the hard, indisputable proof.
This ‘thing’ I thought I saw once was a six foot tall insect sitting across me while eating lunch at a food court. An image flashed by my inner eye for a mere second and I had a strong sense that someone was sitting there and observing me. I entertained the possibility that this could be an alien for a few hours, but then reason got a hold of me and I decided that my imagination was particularity active that day. …show more content…
As soon as I heard Praying Mantis, cold shivers ran through my body. This is exactly what I saw that day, but could not name.
Mary brought up the subject again and this is what I did not want to accept. I had clear ideas how aliens should show up in my experience and how they might look. The reality turned out to be far more mundane, as it is with many things in life.
Now I have to come to grips with the realization that my fantasies about having a star family were formed back in my childhood and that the time has come to grow up and face who or what is presenting itself in my life.
On a side note, facing my own defense mechanisms around aliens leaves me with far more compassion for all those government officials who decided years ago to suppress