She doesn't know how to feel any differently than sad, mad, angry, upset,hurt and most of all disappointed. Gurtler shows these emotions in a very heart-wrenching way.
“ Kristina sobs louder. Her eyes are frantic, not seeing anything. Kristina pushes my Mom away but Mom holds on tighter. Kristina whines and cries and fights her off, but Mom holds on, wrapping her arms around her. Eventually Kristina falls against her, her face buried in Mom’s shirt,” (Gurtler 119-120)
Kristina, knowing that her tumor has grown and that her leg will need to be amputated, caused her to become very depressed. She knows that she will never be able to play volleyball again like she can now. Gurtler shows how much this adversity has changed Kristina’s life. This depressing situation among Kristina, her family and friends, causes them to go through a lot of adversity shown by the way Gurtler wrote this