Personal Statement: A Thank You Letter

I want to apologize to you. I did not handle last night very well. I definitely said things that were on my mind, but could have chosen a better time and way to express my thoughts and feelings. When I left last night we agreed to table the break up until we have the chance to talk Thursday night. I am glad that we decided to do this, but I want you to know where I am coming from and what it is that I need. When I am face to face with you I tend to clam up and stop talking. Unless I get these out and we discuss them our future will be nonexistent. So, I have decided to write you a letter explaining my thoughts, fears, needs, and wants. At least this way you will have an idea of what goes on in my head in case I clam up yet again.
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I have had a lot of time to think about what I want in a relationship, what I am willing to settle with, and what I cannot tolerate. What I want is someone who cares about me regardless of what type of day I am having (happy, sad, mad, etc.). I want someone who challenges me to become the best person that I can become. Someone who I can speak to about important things as well as trivial things. I want someone that I am comfortable being myself in front of. I want someone who will appreciate what I have to offer in a relationship. I want someone who cares about me and is willing to show it in some aspect each day. I want someone who will respect me when I say no, won’t hit or physically abuse me, and will not emotionally abuse or mistreat me. I want someone who wants a life with me but is secure enough in our relationship to have their own life and allow me mine as well. I want someone who respects me. I want someone that I can trust both with myself and not to cheat on me. I want someone who makes me feel wanted. I believe that you show all of the things I want except for the last one.
I am willing to settle with someone who is kind and compassionate to me, treats me with respect, and supports me to the best of their ability. I do not expect to find a man who fulfills all of my wants (though you come damn close.) What I am not willing to tolerate is someone who abuses me in any aspect of the word, nor am I willing to be cheated on. The …show more content…
My health. You know that I have not been feeling well and that some of my labs have come back abnormal. You also know that I hate talking to you about it. My lab values that are off are indicative of heart and kidney problems, but they are also indicative of malnutrition and eating disorders. After discussing the results with the doctor, he feels that I may have begun to relapse. Until this past weekend I was adamant that I had not. After this weekend, I can see signs that I have begun to relapse. I appreciate the concern that you showed me this weekend, but if we are going to be together you need to understand and accept that this is my battle. I have won it several times in the past and intend to do so once again. That is why I have been so vocal about it. What I need from you is support, not parenting. When you dictate that I need to eat, lecture, or force me to eat I dig my feet in and am all the more tempted to continue. What I need from you is to let me know you care. Help by making sure that I have food available for dinner, but respect of I do not eat. If I stop talking about my health, weight, eating disorder then I need you to call me out, because that is a sign that I am beyond relapse and in a full on episode. I need you not to get mad if I don’t eat, but let me know that you support me. I will beat this again, and I will do it soon. Hopefully, with you as my biggest