When I was fifteen my mom had decided to uproot our lives in Michigan to move to a small town in Florida. It started when my mom fell in love with a business partner, Keith, whom she had talked on the phone with for months. She then had flown to Florida to meet with him several times for over the course of a year. When they decided that they could no longer live apart, the decision was made that my mom and I would move from everything we had ever known, to move to a small Florida town. At the time I thought this was the worst thing that could ever happen to my fifteen year old self, however, our move turned out to be the best decision my mom had ever made.
I remember when my mom asked me and my sister to come into the living room to talk. I was automatically nervous because I assumed we were in trouble or that something terrible had happened. My mom’s face was lit with joy like a child on Christmas morning when she told us that she and I would be moving to Florida. Unfortunately, I didn’t have the same reaction. I was immediately blind with rage. How dare she move us away from our entire family, friends, and everything I had grown up with. I had lived in Michigan my entire life and it seemed that she hastily …show more content…
I was sad for such a great amount of time and I started to feel numb, like I was a robot doing the same mundane tasks every single day. The extreme depression I possessed was unbearable and is difficult to explain. Self harming, as strange as it sounds, made me feel good. I was reminded that I was actually a person who could finally feel something. I could finally relieve the sadness and tension from my body. Most of all, I felt like I finally obtained control of my life. I felt like my life was being ran by someone else. I couldn’t control our move, I couldn’t control how I was feeling, and so on. When I would cut I felt like I could finally grab the reins and take over my life
I remember when my mom asked me and my sister to come into the living room to talk. I was automatically nervous because I assumed we were in trouble or that something terrible had happened. My mom’s face was lit with joy like a child on Christmas morning when she told us that she and I would be moving to Florida. Unfortunately, I didn’t have the same reaction. I was immediately blind with rage. How dare she move us away from our entire family, friends, and everything I had grown up with. I had lived in Michigan my entire life and it seemed that she hastily …show more content…
I was sad for such a great amount of time and I started to feel numb, like I was a robot doing the same mundane tasks every single day. The extreme depression I possessed was unbearable and is difficult to explain. Self harming, as strange as it sounds, made me feel good. I was reminded that I was actually a person who could finally feel something. I could finally relieve the sadness and tension from my body. Most of all, I felt like I finally obtained control of my life. I felt like my life was being ran by someone else. I couldn’t control our move, I couldn’t control how I was feeling, and so on. When I would cut I felt like I could finally grab the reins and take over my life