I Loved Jack So Much Essay
Before we all lost jack, I would sit there and hug him so tight and talk to him for hours each day, that 's how I know so much about depression, pain and other mental illnesses. I saw it all through my own eyes with him, all the demons inside and then I went through it.
He would talk to me about his girlfriend, everything he was feeling and what she was doing to him that no human should ever treat their love ones. She pushed boundaries she should have never pushed, he once told me a massive part he didn 't want to be here besides all the other shit that was going on in his life was because of her. His love for her was infinity and the feelings for her was too hard to let go and he would rather chop it all then lose her, it was killing him and sending him insane, but he just surfed it off as it was his only escape to ease his mind and that 's how I learned to surf when I was about twelve and half years old, he taught me so I would have something to distract myself instead of destroying myself.
I was too young to understand at the time, so I just sat there and listened, why I hate myself to this day because I couldn 't help him in time. All I could do was hug him and stuff.…