I Didn 't Bring Myself Essay

1170 Words Sep 21st, 2016 5 Pages
I couldn’t bring myself to hit call. Everytime my finger would hover over the button, some unconscious part of me would stop myself. My mind was telling me one thing but my heart was screaming another. I knew that it was important to make this call; our relationship could not go on any longer but my heart seemed to break a little the moment my finger reached to touch the call button. The tears started welling up even before I heard his voice because I knew what was coming. I knew what was going to happen. Austin and I had been dating for a few months before it needed to end. As I look back I realize that we made immature decisions and a few months is only a blink of an eye in the grand scheme of our lives but then, it seemed like everything. First relationships are important but lead to a plethora of emotions. We learn what we love, what we hate, what we need, and what we most certainly do not. Ending things with him seemed like one of the biggest decisions of my life and I so badly wanted it to work. I adored him at the time and he was so sweet to me but I knew it needed to end. Before I called him, the emotions and memories started flooding through my head in an attempt to magically solve our problems. It was no surprise that the first thing I thought about was how it was in the beginning. It seemed like we did not have any problems and we never foresaw them. When I saw him in the hallway, my heart would jump a little and, as he would later confess, his did as well.…

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