Ball Of Clay Essay

I used to be a ball of clay. I was twisted, sculpted, and made into what those around me wanted me to become. I was morphed into a doubter of faith and stretched into a wavering believer. I was convinced by non-believing teachers and badly chosen friends alike that the Christian religion was not worth my time, and I was not worth Jesus’. The most detrimental part of this was that I believed them. It was not until a conversation with my grandmother that I had heard the verse that changed it all, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28). This statement shocked me. Jesus loves me despite my condition? I am a damaged and worn out ball of clay, yet Jesus died for my sins regardless? This verse …show more content…
I grew up attending church with my family every Sunday, until the church became more of a business than a place of worship. By the time I was thirteen, church was no longer part of the weekend routine and my faith began to waiver. Because I only attended church when I was a kid, my understanding of the Bible was and still remains somewhat fuzzy. Unlike many of my peers at Belmont, I cannot quote scripture off of the top of my head and I do not remember the stories of the Bible that I should remember. This was something that I also experienced a lot throughout high school, upon looking for a new church I found that a lot of the other church goers looked down upon myself and my family for having skipped out on years of attending church and for not knowing the Bible cover to cover. This sentiment towards my religion has drastically shaped how I view my personal faith. For years, I internally fought for my belief in God and often times momentarily lost. I have always craved the love of Jesus and desperately sought his love in times of need but still doubted in Him when everything in my life was going right. I now, thankfully, have a better understanding for my own relationship with God but remain hesitant when it comes to the teachings of the church. Because of my experiences with different church goers, I have lost trust in the church to guide me to a stronger relationship with Jesus. While my faith has been …show more content…
I have become a Christian grounded in my faith. While I still lack somewhat of an understanding of the Bible, I believe that through this course and through my own devotion to reading it I will develop a comprehension of Christianity as well as fortify my own belief in the religion. Whether it is through reading Sumney’s ideas of the creation, Pelikan’s assessment of the story of Moses, or the Bible itself I plan to devote myself to the Christian faith. I refuse to be formed based on how other people believe I should be made because through the Lord I am “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139:14). I am not a ball of clay. I am the weary, the burdened, the fearfully and wonderfully made. I am a follower of