Reflective Essay: How Death Has Changed My Life

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When I was younger I had panic attacks due to the fear of dying, I didn’t experience too close of deaths. Only great grandparents, and the only funereal I remember attending was my great grandmothers, who I called nana. The only thing I remember at that funeral since, I was only 4 or 5 was my 3 year old cousin saying really loud at a silent moment, “What’s in the box?” , he didn’t know better but he did lighten the mood of a sad situation as everyone laughed. Other than that it was a great uncle, great grandfather and my pet fish, Mr. Fish. Other than that it wasn’t till I was 19/20 years old that reality hit that my grandparents, who take a great deal in helping raising me, were not going to live forever. I had a dream one that my grandfather died, I woke up crying and thought it would never happen. I should of headed the warning, a man who barley let a cold or flu keep him stuck in bed was now fighting colorectal cancer, when they thought they …show more content…
My perspective has altered a lot in this last year especially during this class. Cancer that has taken both grandfathers, effected my grandmother she’s now a breast cancer survivor, I have a high chance, I know I’m not a doctor, of getting Muscular Sclerosis due to a past auto-immune disease, diabetes, heart issues and everything else are a part of my family history. I know I can fight for cures, and try everything in my power to make sure I’m healthy, but I also want to live a life full of experience just like my grandfather I never knew everything he did through his life till his celebration of life service we had. I want to be able to go knowing I took chances I could and did things that lasted a lifetime, whether I last a lifetime or not. I’m going to die one day, so might as well make my time here

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