The poet begins by addressing of how he wishes to be actually in his past, but the truth is that it hurts him to woken up from this past and the love that faded from reality into memory. He is dreaming of joy that has now left him, and that joy is no longer real to him.
Next, the poet sets out to explain why he feels this way, when he says “But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.” In which he tells us that being here right now is breaking his heart and he wants to