While everyone around me cared more and tried harder, I could not escape a metaphorical bubble of existence. My life seemed to be made up of moments. The only thing I could account for were brief memories of love, hate, sadness, empathy, integrity, and desperation. I spent months of my life daydreaming about what I was missing out on - waiting for the morning I would wake up with the motivation to feel passionate about anything. I wasn’t depressed, I was existing... floating through life. I felt hopeless and confused why everyone else seemed to be evolving and accomplishing while I was trapped in the whirlwind of emotions and expectations swallowing me whole. It was like I was on a highway, crouched in the middle of a median, knees pressed to my chest, watching as all the cars flew by- each one sending me into a frenzy. I was drowning. Then, the summer before my senior year, my best friend was killed in a car accident on the way home from my house, and, suddenly, I cared. I cared a lot. The summer before my senior year, I began to find myself. Feeling more lost than ever before, I started to analyze who I was, who I wanted to be,
While everyone around me cared more and tried harder, I could not escape a metaphorical bubble of existence. My life seemed to be made up of moments. The only thing I could account for were brief memories of love, hate, sadness, empathy, integrity, and desperation. I spent months of my life daydreaming about what I was missing out on - waiting for the morning I would wake up with the motivation to feel passionate about anything. I wasn’t depressed, I was existing... floating through life. I felt hopeless and confused why everyone else seemed to be evolving and accomplishing while I was trapped in the whirlwind of emotions and expectations swallowing me whole. It was like I was on a highway, crouched in the middle of a median, knees pressed to my chest, watching as all the cars flew by- each one sending me into a frenzy. I was drowning. Then, the summer before my senior year, my best friend was killed in a car accident on the way home from my house, and, suddenly, I cared. I cared a lot. The summer before my senior year, I began to find myself. Feeling more lost than ever before, I started to analyze who I was, who I wanted to be,