Heartbroken Research Paper

I was truly heartbroken for the first time in my entire life. I had no friends, and even my best friend was not always there for me. However, that was not her fault. She texted me and we hung out more, but I pushed everyone away because I did not know how to deal with my feelings. I felt like I lost a whole part of my family, and I just wanted my friends back. I started to spend time with River’s friends because I missed them, but he ruined it every time I tried. I began to spend time with David Wright and Alex Snyder again. We would ride around in their trucks listening to music and going way too fast. Despite the recklessness, I was happy for the first time in a long time. I was smiling and I had finally began to find myself again. If I was not with David riding on old back roads I didn't even knew existed, I was by myself. I found solace in being alone, and driving as fast as I could make Cindy go. Driving too fast made me feel alive and for 30 minutes I was not thinking about anything that had to do with River; it was just me and the road, and I felt invincible. …show more content…
One of the most important places I found was the Button’s Bluff. Kiana and Rachel Ward were the first two people to show me the Bluff. The Bluff is a beautiful overlook of the James river with train tracks running right under the mountain you’re standing on, and a huge cliff at the edge of the rocks. I used to call the Bluff my home, and for a while I probably spent more time at the Bluff than I did at my house. When David and Alex were busy and I had nowhere to go, I would drive to the Bluff and just stare at the view. I always wondered what it would be like to jump off, not in a suicidal way because I love my life, but I wondered what people actually felt about me . I wanted to know what River would be doing if I was not around anymore. I wanted to know if he truly wanted our relationship to end, or if he just was