Guilt Monologue

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She quickly walked outdoors. Fighting back the tears and gasping for more air then her lungs would allow; as if she fiercely needed to replace the current air in her. To feel the warm sun on her skin and mid morning cool breeze. Just to feel something different. To change her mind. To get out.

Nevertheless, it followed her. Always following her.

In the hallway kitchen, as she cooked a warm breakfast, it was there. In the garden, by the calla lilies, it was there. In the laundry room, with the smell of fabric softener, it was there too.

The overwhelming. The shame. The onslaught of negative thoughts that threatened to beat her down in her own house.

Words. Horrible words. Words that had been spoken to her by strangers, friends and
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Word after word. Thought after thought. Guilt piled upon guilt.

The overwhelming. The battlefield in her mind that fights for her strength and security. The humiliation. It wanted to clothe her.

On that bright sunny day, with it's warm sun and cool breezes. She cried out, "Lord, my God, please help me."

Anyone of you in this same battle? Does shame threaten to clothe you with its heavy dark blanket?

I have good news for you!! You are NOT who they say you are. You are not who you say you are. You are who God says you are. And HE thinks you are amazing!

When dealing and healing from these labels let's remember a few things.

#1. God is still in control.

Who is in control? The person that spoke suck negative words to us? No! God is in control. Psalm 104. Yes, the whole chapter. Reminds us that God is in control, He set the world on its foundation, and He alone is the source of life. He is still in control. Even during the darkest of moments that we may face, God is in control and He has us in the palm of His hand. We can trust Him.

#2. Who does God say that we are?

We are a child of God. (John 1:12)

We are accepted by Christ. (Romans

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