Jimmy was enraptured with her and the things that he had from her, like letters and pictures. He spent all of his time gawking over these things from Martha, and daydreaming about her. When Lavender was shot, Jimmy blamed himself for it because he felt like a terrible platoon leader for being distracted. He felt guilty and shameful for paying so much attention to his love. He felt like it was his fault that Ted Lavender was killed, so he changed his ways and threw out everything that would distract him from being the best platoon leader, and keeping other men from being killed. This included the lucky charm that Martha sent to him, which is what he specifically blamed. It was a pebble from the coast of New Jersey, and he tossed it. This is an action he took out of
Jimmy was enraptured with her and the things that he had from her, like letters and pictures. He spent all of his time gawking over these things from Martha, and daydreaming about her. When Lavender was shot, Jimmy blamed himself for it because he felt like a terrible platoon leader for being distracted. He felt guilty and shameful for paying so much attention to his love. He felt like it was his fault that Ted Lavender was killed, so he changed his ways and threw out everything that would distract him from being the best platoon leader, and keeping other men from being killed. This included the lucky charm that Martha sent to him, which is what he specifically blamed. It was a pebble from the coast of New Jersey, and he tossed it. This is an action he took out of