When I signed up for this course I had great expectations; which was good because I scored in the high percentile on the placement test. In fact, I initially thought this class would expand on my previous knowledge while enhancing another of skills, but I was wrong. “Living life like it’s marathon and not a sprint” (Duckworth). While the course has lived up to my expectations my self- confidence has taken drive; moreover, most days I am not sure why I bother to show up. It is kind of intimidating to be around so many young and fresh minds. While I enjoy participating in group discussions with my peers, I sometimes feel like the black sheep of the clan. Most of my classmates are younger than me, and their level of thinking is on another level than mine. Generally speaking, I appreciate fresh new ideas that helps me look at a broader picture, but I feel a bit of shame because my mind is not thinking on the same levels as my peers. For example, when it is time to do peer reviews, I am kind of embarrassed, because it seems as if everyone has two full pages except for me. In some ways it feels like my brain is wired differently, because I think, “Why could I not have thought of that”? I know everyone have their moments of struggle, but it seems as if m struggle is prolonged. Once upon a time my level of thinking was sharp and precise; however, now it takes me an extended amount of time to put a complete thought together. But regardless of my struggle, I know confidence is a crucial component to my
When I signed up for this course I had great expectations; which was good because I scored in the high percentile on the placement test. In fact, I initially thought this class would expand on my previous knowledge while enhancing another of skills, but I was wrong. “Living life like it’s marathon and not a sprint” (Duckworth). While the course has lived up to my expectations my self- confidence has taken drive; moreover, most days I am not sure why I bother to show up. It is kind of intimidating to be around so many young and fresh minds. While I enjoy participating in group discussions with my peers, I sometimes feel like the black sheep of the clan. Most of my classmates are younger than me, and their level of thinking is on another level than mine. Generally speaking, I appreciate fresh new ideas that helps me look at a broader picture, but I feel a bit of shame because my mind is not thinking on the same levels as my peers. For example, when it is time to do peer reviews, I am kind of embarrassed, because it seems as if everyone has two full pages except for me. In some ways it feels like my brain is wired differently, because I think, “Why could I not have thought of that”? I know everyone have their moments of struggle, but it seems as if m struggle is prolonged. Once upon a time my level of thinking was sharp and precise; however, now it takes me an extended amount of time to put a complete thought together. But regardless of my struggle, I know confidence is a crucial component to my