Through the fateful day of their meeting, Pip changed his path from a blacksmith to making a living as a gentleman. When Pip meets Estella once more before going to London, he was again dazed by her, “The lady whom I had never seen before lifted up her eyes and looked archly at me, and then I saw that the eyes were Estella’s eyes. But she was so much changed, was so much more beautiful, so much more womanly, in all things winning admiration had made such wonderful advances, that I seemed to have made none.” (Dickens 235) Pip was shocked by Estella’s transformation and almost didn’t recognize her, envisioning that she had also become a better person. Even when Estella claims she has no heart, stating “I have no softness there, no – sympathy- sentiment- nonsense” (Dickens 238), Although, Estella firmly believes so, Pip refuses to, how can someone so beautiful have no heart? Because of how eye-catching Estella is from his experience with her, he refuses to believe she is calloused. As Pip grows and moves to London for studying to be a gentleman, he does it for Estella, hoping one day he would be just for her. When Estella arrives at London, he is still stunned by her loveliness, where she “seemed more delicately beautiful than she had ever seemed yet, even in my eyes.” (Dickens 266) Between the time of their last visit, Estella became even more irresistible to Pip, making him fall for her even more. Pip knows she is malevolent, however her beauty always trumps that thought. “And still I stood looking at the house, thinking how happy I should be if I lived there with her, and knowing that I never was happy with her, but always miserable.” (Dickens 272) Pip knows the amount of pain Estella causes him, making him feel ashamed of being common and forcing himself to change.
