Gothic Art Reflection

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When I began this project, I thought that I would just change how I looked for 30 days and just be done with it. However, changing my appearance for just 30 days to Goth threw me into this journey of acceptance within myself and other people as well. I came to realize with the help of the looking glass, sociological imagination and the reading we’ve done within the course that everything is not what it seems. Not only is an external altercation the most visible thing I could’ve done, it invoked much thought.
The concept of the gothic look came to me as I was scrolling through Instagram and being immersed in all of the beauty and the creativity that I saw. I also loved the darker aesthetic and although I tried to experiment with it when I was
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First, I started darkening up my makeup. At the very least I would have thick black eyeliner and a bold lip. Then, I made sure to incorporate more black into my wardrobe when I was not stuck at work. Finally, I went as far as getting my nose pierced. This was towards the very end of the project and I was in a tattoo parlor with my friend. I began to get the “why not” mentality and just went for it. At first, I had instant regret but it has really grown on me. The gothic look overall made me open to trying more things.
When I started my gothic transformation, I felt more liberated to express myself. In a way, I used it as an excuse to play with different looks that I normally was too afraid to. I even went as far as getting the nose piercing I wanted since I was younger. I went out and bought a few darker outfits and I opted for darker lipsticks and eyeshadows. The reactions that I received were mixed, some loved it and others hated it. Some people simply did not care at all as well. As Miner puts it, “The focus of this activity is the human body, the appearance and health of which loom as a dominant concern in the ethos of the people” (Miner, 1956, pg. 77). Since my project was all about
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Our self-image is shaped on how other people perceive us. Perhaps the reason I may not have gotten the reactions that I wanted was because I did not go extreme enough, given my limited budget and often getting ready in a time crunch due to my rather busy schedule. Perhaps that it is I am still in a way trying to find out who I really am and I show my uncertainty to other people. This relates to the looking glass theory because it is focused on perception. The glances that I received I presumed to be bad, however that may not be the case. Growing up in a constant presence of critics, I conditioned myself to ignore it most times or assume the worst. I got a majority of my so called dirty stares when I was wearing my black or grey lipsticks. However, I know that for most people it is unusual and I enjoyed the sense of individuality overall. In regards to the looking glass theory, since I was conditioned to negativity, I believe all looks meant something bad. This has shaped my poor self-esteem in the past because I truly believed that because I did not fit society’s standard of pretty, I was not good enough. Once I got used to the goth look I began to look past other people’s opinions and I embraced showing some individuality. Which then in turn made me forget that other people had opinions on my

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