Many people do not know the feeling of waking up to a body that isn't yours. The prospect of looking in the mirror and seeing something so foreign, so disheartening, so uncomfortable, is quite frightening. Some, however, experience this misfortune on a daily basis. I am one of these individuals, and so naturally the thing that would make my world perfect is to change this. I am transgender, and so the only thing that I can envision that would make my world perfect is to be able to both be and be treated as I am inside, as a girl.
Ever since I was young I have had instances of not really fitting in to the gender I was always told that I was. In the third grade, I looked around to see boys playing sports and girls talking to each other and having …show more content…
Gender dysphoria is the discomfort I face with my own body. The late nights crying, breathing heavy, feeling scared, alone, and feeling trapped. The all-encompassing feeling of being trapped within my own body is gender dysphoria. The psychological reason I feel my body is a cage I live within, a shell that carries my mind around to do things. This feeling is in every way the worst thing I have experienced in my entire life. It emotionally pains me to hear my own voice sometimes, feeling it is too deep and isn't even mine. It is hard to breathe sometimes, feeling as if your chest is lacking something that you are supposed to have. It is comparable to women who have to have their breasts removed due to cancer, the map of your body in your brain is so used to having something on your chest, it expects it. When you are flat chested when you are not supposed to be, it is emotionally crippling. When your genitals feel so wrong, as if they shouldn't be there, as if they're wrong, as if you want to cut them off because you're so sick to your stomach, so afraid, so disgusted. These are parts of your body that are supposed to be so personal to you, and yet for me they are the source of so much discomfort. Obviously, this makes the list of things I would change to make my world perfect. I would want to change my body so that I could be comfortable within my skin and comfortable with
Ever since I was young I have had instances of not really fitting in to the gender I was always told that I was. In the third grade, I looked around to see boys playing sports and girls talking to each other and having …show more content…
Gender dysphoria is the discomfort I face with my own body. The late nights crying, breathing heavy, feeling scared, alone, and feeling trapped. The all-encompassing feeling of being trapped within my own body is gender dysphoria. The psychological reason I feel my body is a cage I live within, a shell that carries my mind around to do things. This feeling is in every way the worst thing I have experienced in my entire life. It emotionally pains me to hear my own voice sometimes, feeling it is too deep and isn't even mine. It is hard to breathe sometimes, feeling as if your chest is lacking something that you are supposed to have. It is comparable to women who have to have their breasts removed due to cancer, the map of your body in your brain is so used to having something on your chest, it expects it. When you are flat chested when you are not supposed to be, it is emotionally crippling. When your genitals feel so wrong, as if they shouldn't be there, as if they're wrong, as if you want to cut them off because you're so sick to your stomach, so afraid, so disgusted. These are parts of your body that are supposed to be so personal to you, and yet for me they are the source of so much discomfort. Obviously, this makes the list of things I would change to make my world perfect. I would want to change my body so that I could be comfortable within my skin and comfortable with