Gender Dynamics In My Family

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I come from a household of girls. I am the oldest of three daughters where the only male is my father- that is including pets. For most of my life, my mother (who graduated with honors from the University of Texas) was also the primary provider for my family and my father was a stay at home dad who went to college, but never graduated and was never great at school, to begin with. From an early age, my dad was the one who dressed me and interacted with me more on a daily basis up until around elementary school when he got a job- only to later become a stay at home dad again a few years later. The dynamic in my household is an interesting one although it certainly never struck me that way until I came of an age to notice that it was not a very …show more content…
However, in spite of the fact that she is strong, smart, and the person who really takes care of us- she is also insecure in her body and often lets that define her more in a way. Growing up and seeing that, I have tried to keep from letting how I look- especially when it comes to my body define my feelings towards myself so much. In my head, I feel like it is an unimportant thing and that who you are as a person should matter more, but when applying it to myself, it is difficult to use my rationale to change my emotions. Whenever I am around my cousins, though, I often feel inadequate because they are smaller than I am even though I have frequently gotten better grades and scholarships than they have and feel that should matter more, but the weight of that importance drops and I find this happens occasionally with other girls outside of my family as …show more content…
I respect and even almost envy girls who do as I wish I would at times try harder, but ultimately I think it is every person’s choice to do or not do it and I personally do not really feel any better or worse regardless. I have had friends who put an effort into how they look before, but my friends that I have now at school not only put an effort into how they look, they care a lot how I do too to an extent. They make comments about how I look “hot” whenever I put on makeup and ask who I got dressed up for and they only ask to take pictures with me if I put more of an effort into how I look. While I do not believe they have any bad intentions or are even aware of the fact that they act like how I look makes a difference in how they act towards me, it has affected me a lot. I started to get dressed up less and tell them more that I did not want to take pictures with them to spite them a little bit. While I had worn makeup with some regularity and would try and dress nicely for myself, now I do not most of the time because I just personally do not see a point in it in regards to myself. I also stopped doing it in part because of my

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