Upon entering the rooms of NA about 4.5 years ago, I was told some crazy things, by far the crazies was don’t kill yourself in the 1st 5 year of recovery because you will be killing someone you do not know. I remember thinking what a ridiculous idea. I have been living for 40 years of course I knew who I was. How does someone get to be 40 and not know who they are? Yes it was true that I was a drug addict but that did not mean that I had no identity, or that my core values and my worldviews were skedded. That first year of recovery I was convinced that this statement was invalid and could not possibly be true. And then one day a little over a year into recovery I realized just how true that statement was. And this class has definitely helped
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I was asked question about my life, how and who raised me, what culture I was from and if I felt different because of my culture. Frankly at the time of the screening I had no idea what culture was and how it could possible affect me. I had no idea how deep the French culture lived in me and how it had created a sort of duplicity in my personality. How I could easily switch from the uptight almost snobby everything is together on the outside while the inside is crumbling personality that I was raised with to the casual anger entitled nature of Americans throughout my first several years of recovery this duplicity of my personality played heavy on my heart however I did not until recently, specifically the class understand that it was my cultural upbringing that was causing this …show more content…
I am finally after 4 plus years understanding who I am and how my past is influence my present. And how life is not about being exactly like your neighbor but about being different and finding common ground. I am no longer looking to eradicate my “frenchish” but embracing it as part of who I am and using that to help and inspire other people to be there true self in a world that trying to shape you into who you should
I was asked question about my life, how and who raised me, what culture I was from and if I felt different because of my culture. Frankly at the time of the screening I had no idea what culture was and how it could possible affect me. I had no idea how deep the French culture lived in me and how it had created a sort of duplicity in my personality. How I could easily switch from the uptight almost snobby everything is together on the outside while the inside is crumbling personality that I was raised with to the casual anger entitled nature of Americans throughout my first several years of recovery this duplicity of my personality played heavy on my heart however I did not until recently, specifically the class understand that it was my cultural upbringing that was causing this …show more content…
I am finally after 4 plus years understanding who I am and how my past is influence my present. And how life is not about being exactly like your neighbor but about being different and finding common ground. I am no longer looking to eradicate my “frenchish” but embracing it as part of who I am and using that to help and inspire other people to be there true self in a world that trying to shape you into who you should