Forgiveness Letter To Otterbein

While at Otterbein, not everything has been so easy, which no fault can be put on Otterbein that is just a course of life. You overcome these struggles and you learn from them. This brings me to my family conflict paper, this paper allowed me to bring attention to an event in my life that is still new. My conflict paper was about my mom and the emotional neglect I had as a child. The paper also touches on the fraud my mother committed against me and my discovery of it my sophomore year while at Otterbein. After I realized this fraud, I had tried to trust her and believe she would do the right thing and fix the problem she had created. Though time passed, and she did not, and I had to take action and file a police report. I talk about how this …show more content…
I feel forgiveness is the key and the beginning to healing. The loss of my father has been on my mind since the day I lost him. I can tell you off the top of my head how long it has been without even thinking, because not one day goes by that I do not miss him and think about the relationship we could have had. My relationship with my mom is not very strong and I can only think what my relationship with my dad would have been. It is said a child favors one parent over the other; we use phrases like mommy’s boy or daddy’s girl. Back to my main point though with my forgiveness letter, I chose to forgive my dad for taking his own life. This is the main theme of the paper, I feel it is also a forgiveness letter to myself also. I blamed myself for many years in thinking I was not a good enough daughter and that it was my fault that I couldn’t stop my dad from making this decision. Writing this letter was one of the hardest things for me to do in this class and this paper helped me to heal. I do not believe I will ever stop missing my dad or the memories we could have had, but to be able to bring the thoughts in my head to life, is in a sense therapeutic. I have never seen a therapist but have often heard that bottling things up inside gives them the power to fester and prevent …show more content…
I joined EKT my freshman year fall semester and have learned so much from these ladies. Being able to have a close-knit family right on campus, has been a blessing the years that I have been at Otterbein. I know if I ever need anyone of them, the girls would be there with just a call. EKT has showed me that in life not all relationships are transactional and that the best kind of relationships are transformational. I may pay dues to be in the sorority, but I do not pay for the kindness my sisters show me. I do not pay for the advice they have given me, and I do not pay for the lessons I have learned from them. I also do not make any of them pay me for the support I offer a sister when she is in need. EKT has showed me that it is okay to need help sometimes and that it is okay to ask for help. Last spring semester after dealing with the stuff with my mom, I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to keep attending Otterbein. I was struggling financially and relied on myself to pay for food and my school and anything I needed. Expenses for living on campus were not an option and I live almost 40 minutes away. I brought this up to my sisters and they helped me and offered that I should live in the house. I had missed the time to apply, but they still allowed me to apply and accepted me into the house and gave me the opportunity to keep going to Otterbein. This