This is the first author who blatantly explains her love for New York. The way time passes differently and the beauty of spring. There is a love for the smell of expensive perfume mixing with garbage. But none of the bad outweighed the good. The magic of the city was for Didion there was always an element of surprise. She also makes the connection of how New York should not be a place where people live rather work, shop, and vacation. One loses their sense of wonder and when the tourist view eventually becomes desensitized, the real New York becomes less fascinating. Throughout her essay it is apparent that staying in New York makes her become depressed and willing to “run away” in a sense. “When I discovered not all promises should be kept, that some things are in fact irrevocable and that it had counted, after all, every evasion and every procrastination.”(Didion 4). Didion uses this quote to not only explain how unreal New York is but also answers the question by explaining through the memory flashes that came back to her which distorted her view and makes you seem to fall right back into the past. Didion mentions the city shatters one’s illusions by the youthful dream of New York and as years pass there is a loss of wonder. She does not see the mirage of the city because of the passionate love that she has for it. Similar to an abusive relationship, she stays knowing that it is unhealthy for her. After seeing the truth she continues to stay even after the illusion is long gone. It takes an outside force, her husband, to quite literally pull her away from the city and indirectly the pain it is causing
This is the first author who blatantly explains her love for New York. The way time passes differently and the beauty of spring. There is a love for the smell of expensive perfume mixing with garbage. But none of the bad outweighed the good. The magic of the city was for Didion there was always an element of surprise. She also makes the connection of how New York should not be a place where people live rather work, shop, and vacation. One loses their sense of wonder and when the tourist view eventually becomes desensitized, the real New York becomes less fascinating. Throughout her essay it is apparent that staying in New York makes her become depressed and willing to “run away” in a sense. “When I discovered not all promises should be kept, that some things are in fact irrevocable and that it had counted, after all, every evasion and every procrastination.”(Didion 4). Didion uses this quote to not only explain how unreal New York is but also answers the question by explaining through the memory flashes that came back to her which distorted her view and makes you seem to fall right back into the past. Didion mentions the city shatters one’s illusions by the youthful dream of New York and as years pass there is a loss of wonder. She does not see the mirage of the city because of the passionate love that she has for it. Similar to an abusive relationship, she stays knowing that it is unhealthy for her. After seeing the truth she continues to stay even after the illusion is long gone. It takes an outside force, her husband, to quite literally pull her away from the city and indirectly the pain it is causing