Experiences In Bless Me, Ultima By Rudolfo Anaya

An instant moment of realization can transform the inner soul and take away ones purity and replace it with a sense of quandary and maturity. As life offers more experiences and obstacles, the degree of innocence that is within the body begins to withdraw. Experiences tend to offer knowledge, but may also instill confusion and change. As shown by Antonio, the main character in Bless Me, Ultima by Rudolfo Anaya, the epiphanies that he underwent brought about change and altered his view of the world and his beliefs.
At a tender age, the innocence of a child is often preserved and is in its purest form. However, this innocence can easily be compromised by just one encounter. This first encounter experienced by Antonio was …show more content…
The killing of Lupito made him question God and ponder the fate of Lupito’s soul. He questioned God and the persona of God that was portrayed. It was a drastic change within him since he was raised to be a devout Catholic. This tragic event that he witnessed never left him and continued to haunt him. Antonio even approached Ultima, the wise female figure that was introduced into his life and the only person that understands him fully, about his conflicted feelings of his spirituality. No one could answer the questions he had nor solve the mystery that remained deep within his thoughts. He was disoriented from just this one …show more content…
All her hope was in Antonio since he was the last child that could fulfill her dreams. The plan of his mother began to progressively unravel since Antonio’s inconsistency of his beliefs only increased. The golden carp only contributed to this since he had something else to believe in. Since A ntonio was young and was still very open minded, he was not restricted when it came to what he believed in. The introduction of a sacred fish was able to spur more uncertainty with the concept of God. Antonio was curious about the golden carp and wanted to believe in this fish. This conflict put a strain on him and showed that he was pressured to believe in God. “But I want to believe, I looked up and pleaded, it’s just that I have to believe in Him.” ( Anaya 107) Antonio wanted to believe in the golden carp, but he knew that he had to believe in God because that was expected of him. When Antonio finally witnessed this golden god in the river, he was in awe and felt the utmost admiration because of its beauty. His attention was captured by the fish more than it would have been by any other spiritual