There was no worse feeling then knowing he could slip up, even once, and possibly destroy everything he had worked so hard to build. So much time and effort could be completely wiped out and all because there was one moment of weakness. This was how felt with Ethan and his addiction, like everyday was a struggle to keep from going back.Some days he just wanted to say screw it all and dive right back into his old life, the one where he didn't care about anything, where he could lose control and not give a damn. He was only fourteen when he found the drug that could so easily bring him to his knees, and from then on, it was something he would crave for the rest of his life. Even now and after all these years, thinking about heroin could push him to lose control and from there, he would be forced to talk himself down before it became too late. It was so damn easy to give up — the real struggle came from fighting, something Ethan had been doing for six years now.
Sixteen, that's how old he was when he first entered into rehab. It was a mix of being forced and wanting to get clean but that didn't make it any easier on Ethan, who had spent the previous two years in a drug …show more content…
Ethan sat at the back row listening to a newcomer speak of their past and their troubles with drugs. It had been two years since his last encounter with heroin but these meetings were still needed. Ethan felt as though they saved his life — he didn't know how many times he might have fallen off the wagon if not for these people and this meeting, and so he kept coming. Sometimes he would walk to the front and speak while other times, he would simply sit in the back row and listen to the other speakers. There were a ton of people, like himself, that were going through the same issue. Sure, the drug of choice wasn't always the same but it was still an addiction and this was a room full of people who were attempting to keep themselves
Sixteen, that's how old he was when he first entered into rehab. It was a mix of being forced and wanting to get clean but that didn't make it any easier on Ethan, who had spent the previous two years in a drug …show more content…
Ethan sat at the back row listening to a newcomer speak of their past and their troubles with drugs. It had been two years since his last encounter with heroin but these meetings were still needed. Ethan felt as though they saved his life — he didn't know how many times he might have fallen off the wagon if not for these people and this meeting, and so he kept coming. Sometimes he would walk to the front and speak while other times, he would simply sit in the back row and listen to the other speakers. There were a ton of people, like himself, that were going through the same issue. Sure, the drug of choice wasn't always the same but it was still an addiction and this was a room full of people who were attempting to keep themselves