Trauma is described by the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders as “a psychologically distressing event that is outside the range of usual human experience… and that would be markedly distressing to almost anyone” (1993). Specific cases of trauma include exposure to war, rape, neglect, automobile and other accidents, invasive surgery, serious illness, and assault (Levine, 1997). The definition of trauma goes on to include any “serious threat to one’s life or physical integrity; serious threat or harm to one’s children, spouse or other close relatives or friends; sudden destruction of one’s home or community; seeing another person who is or has recently been seriously injured or killed as the result of an accident or physical
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My research is my life experience and through play, experimentation, awareness of my physical body and interaction with the world around me, a whole-hearted research intertwined into each word I write, allowing the sloppiness and unconditional nature of it spill onto the page. For me, research and healing are intertwined as an evolution of the mind, body and spirit. “Expression is necessary” for one to be able to experience release and find further clarity of the trauma (Levine & Land, 2016). This is how I express and communicate and because writing this essay has prompted debilitating self-doubt and anxiety within me, I decided to be true to my experience and let the editing come later. The fourth grade is the earliest time I can think back to when school related to any sort of anxiety related to school, I recall it as a vicious confusion and uncertainty in my ability to accomplish a certain task; it was an open book test and the concept did not register to me, resulting in my first grade school equivalence of an A minus: imperfection. I am not sure if any of this school-related anxiety will be kept in this paper but I am glad to be getting it out of my system and onto paper. I write of my school experiences to as a way to explain theories of school-related trauma and making peace with myself as to why it is so hard for me to write a
My research is my life experience and through play, experimentation, awareness of my physical body and interaction with the world around me, a whole-hearted research intertwined into each word I write, allowing the sloppiness and unconditional nature of it spill onto the page. For me, research and healing are intertwined as an evolution of the mind, body and spirit. “Expression is necessary” for one to be able to experience release and find further clarity of the trauma (Levine & Land, 2016). This is how I express and communicate and because writing this essay has prompted debilitating self-doubt and anxiety within me, I decided to be true to my experience and let the editing come later. The fourth grade is the earliest time I can think back to when school related to any sort of anxiety related to school, I recall it as a vicious confusion and uncertainty in my ability to accomplish a certain task; it was an open book test and the concept did not register to me, resulting in my first grade school equivalence of an A minus: imperfection. I am not sure if any of this school-related anxiety will be kept in this paper but I am glad to be getting it out of my system and onto paper. I write of my school experiences to as a way to explain theories of school-related trauma and making peace with myself as to why it is so hard for me to write a