Energy/ Resources Throughout this entire time in our life there were a bunch of different sources of both positive and negative energy.
The components that gave the most energy was our grandmother and immediate family. Of course there was some rocky experiences from both components, but overall they were helpful. For example, when my mother, Natoya, first found out that my sister …show more content…
My family has unfortunately always been a great source of negativity in my life and anyone else’s life that is a part of my genealogy. It is upsetting to say but being negatively affected by my family has become a sort of fact of life for me. It often makes me feel out of place in our class because the other students usually have a great outlook on the relationships within the family while I just have to be hopeful and think positively. Doing this ecomap did make me think about my experiences when I was younger and how I used a lot of outside systems to help me cope with family issues. In middle school and high school, I was very involved with different clubs and activities and I am realizing not that it may have been a way for me to get energy from an outside system since I was not getting any from my home life. This discovery I found about myself does not show well in this specific ecomap because the situation was centered on my older …show more content…
When I decided what family event I wanted to do, I found that it was easier to find energy being taken away from our family unit than it was to find any energy being given. It was even more difficult to find any positive energy being generated within the family unit. At one point I found myself racking my brain to find anything positive during this time. In doing so I found that a lot of systems outside our family unit only gave some support and it usually came with their own opinions and attitudes, which is way I have more uncertain connections than strong connections. During all this reflection, I found that the bond with my sisters and I was always strong. This makes me happy because we all have very stressful relationships with our mother and a good part of our family, so knowing that connection will likely stay strong no matter what makes me feel better about at least some parts of my crazy