I felt afraid and insecure during some aspects of this project. I hate calling people on the phone and hate even further asking people for help. I further hate the threat of putting others out, or asking more of them than I should. I was also slightly insecure about asking males to help me. In the past I would not have trusted them to help me, be with me in a shop alone, or even to be my friend though the process and not judge or belittle me. However God had been changing and I had experienced just enough growth to do what it took. However, calling Josh Mohn the prop design expert and asking for help was one of the hardest things about this project. I got so nervous before I called him and had to walk around the room and think about how much Gregg needed this (or at …show more content…
I knew exactly where all my tools were and loved feeling my wire pliers in my back pocket knowing I could use them well, even if I didn’t know what I was doing. Most of it was pretty intuitive, because of my lack of experience. I loved the rush it was to look up scripture and pray about why I was doing what I was doing, praying and just doing my best, with the small things. I felt embarrassed too though. My roommates didn’t come around as often as I’d hoped because it was just so cold and it was sometimes embarrassing to repeat I was going to work on the dragons for the 50th time. I grew in my ability to just live and let people be a part as they can. Some helped me and many noticed how much effort I was putting in and encouraged