Disheartenment In John's Aurabon

Jon further challenges the Facility’s ideals when Josh and Ruth’s Baby Amber dies. After the death, Jon exclaims, “This sucks, this is totally fucked up!” (Saunders 28). This is a statement showing raw emotions and grief, which the Facility can have none of. Disheartenment produces inefficient workers, so the Facility attempts to drug the workers back into happiness by the use of Aurabon. Carolyn, however, is unable to take Aurabon due to her pregnancy, so Amber’s death triggers a more profound impact on her. She’s appalled that the others have stopped caring about Amber’s death simply because of Aurabon and realizes that she may be the only one with human feelings. This prompts Carolyn to escape the Facility after promising the child in her …show more content…
Ironically, one of Jon’s major concerns is being unable to convey his love for Carolyn because after he leaves, he will no longer be able to use commercials as imageries and metaphors. Once again, the reader sees Jon teetering between the balance of self-identity and social identity. His love for Carolyn overshadows many other concerns in his mind, but he fears the inability to champion his love to the rest of the world. Since the Facility portrays the people outside as derelicts wandering about with no purpose in life, Jon is also plagued with the fear of degrading his role in society. However, Jon’s longing to be reunited with Carolyn and their child is what eventually gives him the resolve to …show more content…
It’s interesting to note that perhaps Jon and Carolyn’s love story is cultivated out of a yearning for the true self, that it could be a demonstration of revenge against the Facility, one that reveals to them that their previous existences were bogus and meaningless. Their love, a human desire for completion of the soul, leads them to realize that there is more to life than having a secure social role. They come to be allured by the raw reality that proclaiming their identities will bring