I had grown tired of waking up in this cold and sterile environment of the hospital NICU (neonatal intensive care unit). As every morning nurses were bustling, getting the first round of vitals on each tiny patient, updating health profiles, and getting prepared for new arrivals to the NICU. Today came as a relief escaping the bleak hospital halls for the comfort of home, no more monitors, tests, or paperwork. Bringing my precious baby home after forty-four days was long awaited; once home I would begin to understand how motherhood would forever change me.
Constant bells ringing and beeping along with alarms that sound like sirens were the music of the unit. My now healthy baby boy no longer needed the around the clock monitoring it was finally time to free him of these noisy wires. Removing the pulse oximeter, blood pressure cuff, and sticky pads that covered my little one was thrilling yet there was a slight anxiousness that hung in the air for there was no screen to give reassurance of his wellbeing. Holding my son without any machine between us could not have been more calming and peaceful, a moment that I had been longing for.
Sonograms, bloodwork, and IV test after test I waited to hear good news, shocked to find only two tests were standing in the way of Logan and home. Two wires stuck one on each side of Logan’s forehead, the other end of the …show more content…
Holding Logan in my arms, thankful to be home, I realized mother is not just a title, it is an instinct. Protecting, nurturing, and encouraging are all part of the unpredictable journey of parenthood, it has changed who I thought I needed to be, into the mother I want to be. Playing peek- a- boo, and reading bedtime stories is only the beginning of this odyssey, with a bright toothless smile leading me on, I can only envision the man Logan will grow to be, but in this moment as he lay asleep on my chest, I want this tenderness and warmth to
Constant bells ringing and beeping along with alarms that sound like sirens were the music of the unit. My now healthy baby boy no longer needed the around the clock monitoring it was finally time to free him of these noisy wires. Removing the pulse oximeter, blood pressure cuff, and sticky pads that covered my little one was thrilling yet there was a slight anxiousness that hung in the air for there was no screen to give reassurance of his wellbeing. Holding my son without any machine between us could not have been more calming and peaceful, a moment that I had been longing for.
Sonograms, bloodwork, and IV test after test I waited to hear good news, shocked to find only two tests were standing in the way of Logan and home. Two wires stuck one on each side of Logan’s forehead, the other end of the …show more content…
Holding Logan in my arms, thankful to be home, I realized mother is not just a title, it is an instinct. Protecting, nurturing, and encouraging are all part of the unpredictable journey of parenthood, it has changed who I thought I needed to be, into the mother I want to be. Playing peek- a- boo, and reading bedtime stories is only the beginning of this odyssey, with a bright toothless smile leading me on, I can only envision the man Logan will grow to be, but in this moment as he lay asleep on my chest, I want this tenderness and warmth to