The preceding 4 weeks lead to me destroying any personal relationship with the people who could tolerate me, dropping out of college, and winding up homeless . I had subsequently done what every 45 year old alcoholic accomplishes by the age of 21. I had fallen asleep in the truck with the heater off after super heating it the evening before and like most morning's I awoke to a numb face, frigid toes, and nothing but time.... time to replay the events that had lead me to this specific moment in my life. I had a pattern of minor self-destruction throughout my youth nothing major however with the weight of life and a mind unprepared for this wave of energy, I was sent into a self destructive spiral. As I sat there attempting to wriggle my toes and generate warmth Parking lot security came whizzing by, I flung my blanket over my head lay back and stayed absolutely still. When the vehicle passed and I lay there legs curled to one side too long for the back bench seat I can and a hand made blanket with puppies and hearts on it covered my unshaven face I told myself," I am done with this, I refuse this reality." Was it a divine
The preceding 4 weeks lead to me destroying any personal relationship with the people who could tolerate me, dropping out of college, and winding up homeless . I had subsequently done what every 45 year old alcoholic accomplishes by the age of 21. I had fallen asleep in the truck with the heater off after super heating it the evening before and like most morning's I awoke to a numb face, frigid toes, and nothing but time.... time to replay the events that had lead me to this specific moment in my life. I had a pattern of minor self-destruction throughout my youth nothing major however with the weight of life and a mind unprepared for this wave of energy, I was sent into a self destructive spiral. As I sat there attempting to wriggle my toes and generate warmth Parking lot security came whizzing by, I flung my blanket over my head lay back and stayed absolutely still. When the vehicle passed and I lay there legs curled to one side too long for the back bench seat I can and a hand made blanket with puppies and hearts on it covered my unshaven face I told myself," I am done with this, I refuse this reality." Was it a divine