Definition Of Infatuation

This essay is called an essay because it's entirely too long, too wordy, and too explanatory to be anything else. This essay is where I get close with you, where I tell you stories and truths about myself likely no one else knows, or at least pities me enough to pretend not to. I'm one of those people who acts cool and collected and superior to everyone else, but in reality I fall in love faster than I can breathe and I make assumptions and my soul is crushed because I hear a man I'm in love with speak after knowing him half an hour. I'm just that type of person. And this is why calling this an essay is incorrect: it's way more personal than that. But I'm going to pretend it's not. I'm going to pretend I'm not divulging my entire self into …show more content…
And Jesus H. Christ I've been infatuated more times than I've had crushes on people. My definition of infatuation is a bit different than the traditional one, it's basically just that step further up the ladder from a 'crush', where you're never really going to forget the way you feel about the person you're infatuated with, no matter for how long you liked them. I'll be changing names just a little bit, but these are true stories about four people (all boys, my experiences with girls have been pretty different. That will be talked about in the Sexuality Crises section); Joshua Zane, Ryan Montenegro, Daniel McKay and Jake Priestley. These four boys all fit into four different sections of infatuation, and I think my experience with them has actually helped me identify myself. But more on that later. With an infatuation, you still feel nervous talking around them, but you also yearn to spend time with them, to embarrass yourself in front of them, to look at them and catch them looking at you, to consider them one of your closest friends and not feel satisfied, to regret every misstep and judge every moment you spend with them, even though you're trying not to do any of those things. Basically, an infatuation is when you know not being with this person hurts more than being with them and embarrassing …show more content…
As I've already said, my use of infatuation is a bit different from its literal meaning, so please don't take it's bad connotation into account just yet. In this case, an infatuation's status depends entirely on the situation. I'm going to ask this again, are you absolutely certain you're infatuated? Does it matter? Yes. Never, ever, assume a crush is an infatuation, because I'm about to tell you to go for it, and you shouldn't be going for anyone who doesn't deserve you. It may seem like I'm stressing the eliminating factor of crush-dom too much, but that's because it's so simple, and if you haven't gone through it, you're missing so much. This section of the essay may seem a bit lackluster to you, and that's because infatuation is so much more delicate to move around than a crush. The only thing I will tell you not to control yourself about an infatuation is to act quickly. Holding in feelings longer does not give you more of a right, and the moment will be just as hard sooner or later, so the best thing to do is go for