Reflective Essay: The Sartell Dance Team

For the past three years, I have been apart of the Sartell Dance Team. Starting my freshman year I was definitely intimidated. I was scared that all the upperclassmen were judging every kick, jump, and turn I did at practice. It was a year of learning the ropes and getting the feel for high school dance team. I thought it was fun to be honest. I enjoyed hanging out with my grade and just getting to know them. I felt good about myself because I went from an alternate to a dancer in formation which motivated me to do good. I wasn’t the best freshman but that’s understandable because almost no rookie is. We got 3rd and 3rd at state and I really didn’t know what to feel. Yeah we won every single competition and it was bit disappointing but we were …show more content…
I went from fearing about popping my knee to wishing I popped it. I had a meeting with the coaches one day at practice where they told me I was a filler on the team. I was just there. That stung so much because I knew for a fact I was not just there last year. I may not of been noticeable to them because they only watch those important to their eyes but to social media I was not “just there.” Throughout the season I had thoughts of not coming back my senior year. It was hard because I spent so much of my time and life invested into this team and this sport but I got to a point where I just could not take it anymore. The Sartell Dance Team was actually breaking me. Everyday I felt so worthless and neglected and I kept thinking to myself what am I doing here. Why on earth am I wasting my time on people who care so little about me? I cried almost every night because I absolutely loathed the coaches and the sport. The coaches showed so much favoritism towards Reese, Kathleen, Welsh, and a few others that it frustrated me beyond anything imagined. I wanted to scream because I wanted them so badly to see me and that's when I