I had spent the past 2 years, day-in and day-out, raising him as if he were my own son. But when the semester had started, I discovered that due to the course load, I was unable to spend any quality time with him. Despite having scheduled “nephew breaks”, the adjustment was difficult for me; as I’m sure it was for him. He would plead for me to play with him longer, only for me to apologize and return to my studies. This created a distance between my nephew and I and I started to fear that our relationship would deteriorate, the end result being him resenting me. These thoughts consumed me to the point where I was unable to focus on my studies. As a result, I had scored lower that I would have liked on a few tests and quizzes; only creating more undesirable feelings. Feelings such as worry, disappointment, and regret were now also haunting me. The disharmony inside my mind had turned into disharmony outside of …show more content…
Before the school year had started, I was aware that certain sacrifices would have to be made. All of my favourite hobbies were put on the back burner so that I can focus on school. But the one sacrifice that proved difficult was spending quality time with my nephew. As important as school is to me, my nephew is more important. He was one of the main reasons I decided to go to school in the first place; so that he can have a positive male role model in his life. When I started school, I convinced myself that I was going to give it 110% day-in day-out, but I now realize that this lofty goal is not sustainable. Another realization that dawned upon me was that perhaps I just need to give it time. Give both my nephew and myself time to adjust to all the changes. And it’s with this epiphany that I have a better grasp and understanding of what actions and changes I need to make in order successfully find a