Why did I survive, Allister? How come I didn’t die when I took those three rounds? One in the shoulder, one in the arm, one in the thigh and then the impossible. In another engagement I took an armor-piercing round right through my armor vest, why did I live to suffer?”
Tank glanced at him through moistened eyes, looking for a reaction. He hoped that his revelation wasn’t overkilling, in the same way as he did with Ellie.
“You’re alive through the grace and sovereignty of God. Tank, the Lord has a plan for your life. There are other special works He will entrust to your hands. It might be to reach others suffering from P.T.S.D. There is nothing but long lineups at the VA. Maybe, the Lord has help for them through you. He has already used you …show more content…
I can’t tell you that I understand it all. I was never in a war or even an armed conflict for that matter.
The load you are carrying is tremendous. I’m sure other people told you that there was nothing else you could do. Nor, was there something you failed to do that would have changed any of the outcomes. I want you to know that it would have been the same no matter what you did or didn’t do. Listen to, these two Scriptures.”
“Now, see that I, and only I, am God! There is no other God! I put people to death, and I let people live. I can hurt people, and I can make them well. No one can save another person from my power!” (Deuteronomy 32:39 ERV)
“The LORD causes people to die, and he causes them to live. He sends people down to the grave, and he can raise them up to live again.” (1st. Samuel 2:6 ERV)
“So, Tank, the terrorist’s worked their evil, but only God has the power of life and death. The Lord ultimately brought blessings out of it all. You are that blessing. Those who are alive today due to your actions under fire, they are that benefit. They live on, bringing, peace to those around them. What, other miracles will come out of this, we may not know this side of …show more content…
Another Sergeant may have found other advantages that I missed. They might have covered all the bases.”
“Bro, you’re not somebody else. Somebody else wasn’t there, you were. You did your best, didn’t you?”
“Certainly I did, but…” Allister cut him off.
“Wait a minute,” interjected a concerned Allister who was in over his head. “Your soldier’s the ones that died. Did they love and trust you?”
“Obviously, they showed trust, but that’s the point. I failed them. I wish I had come up with another way to handle it.”
“Tank, I wonder, would they agree with you? Somehow, I don’t think so. You indicated that you did your best. God doesn’t expect any more from us than that.”
“Then why, after I prayed and confessed it as a sin do I still suffer from the nightmares?”
He waited patiently through Allister’s long pause. When he did reply, his answer was of little comfort.
“Tank, I’m not a Pastor. Why don’t we talk with Pastor Jim? I’m sure he will be able to answer your question.”
Tank felt that Allister was avoiding the question so he gave him an out.
“I need to take the time to pray about it. We’ll connect later,” he declared
Tank glanced at him through moistened eyes, looking for a reaction. He hoped that his revelation wasn’t overkilling, in the same way as he did with Ellie.
“You’re alive through the grace and sovereignty of God. Tank, the Lord has a plan for your life. There are other special works He will entrust to your hands. It might be to reach others suffering from P.T.S.D. There is nothing but long lineups at the VA. Maybe, the Lord has help for them through you. He has already used you …show more content…
I can’t tell you that I understand it all. I was never in a war or even an armed conflict for that matter.
The load you are carrying is tremendous. I’m sure other people told you that there was nothing else you could do. Nor, was there something you failed to do that would have changed any of the outcomes. I want you to know that it would have been the same no matter what you did or didn’t do. Listen to, these two Scriptures.”
“Now, see that I, and only I, am God! There is no other God! I put people to death, and I let people live. I can hurt people, and I can make them well. No one can save another person from my power!” (Deuteronomy 32:39 ERV)
“The LORD causes people to die, and he causes them to live. He sends people down to the grave, and he can raise them up to live again.” (1st. Samuel 2:6 ERV)
“So, Tank, the terrorist’s worked their evil, but only God has the power of life and death. The Lord ultimately brought blessings out of it all. You are that blessing. Those who are alive today due to your actions under fire, they are that benefit. They live on, bringing, peace to those around them. What, other miracles will come out of this, we may not know this side of …show more content…
Another Sergeant may have found other advantages that I missed. They might have covered all the bases.”
“Bro, you’re not somebody else. Somebody else wasn’t there, you were. You did your best, didn’t you?”
“Certainly I did, but…” Allister cut him off.
“Wait a minute,” interjected a concerned Allister who was in over his head. “Your soldier’s the ones that died. Did they love and trust you?”
“Obviously, they showed trust, but that’s the point. I failed them. I wish I had come up with another way to handle it.”
“Tank, I wonder, would they agree with you? Somehow, I don’t think so. You indicated that you did your best. God doesn’t expect any more from us than that.”
“Then why, after I prayed and confessed it as a sin do I still suffer from the nightmares?”
He waited patiently through Allister’s long pause. When he did reply, his answer was of little comfort.
“Tank, I’m not a Pastor. Why don’t we talk with Pastor Jim? I’m sure he will be able to answer your question.”
Tank felt that Allister was avoiding the question so he gave him an out.
“I need to take the time to pray about it. We’ll connect later,” he declared