I can't wrap my mind around it. it's just mind boggling. i dont know. people say everything happens for a reason, but what if that wasn't supposed to happen. if those doctors didn't mess but on a simple procedure, my family and I wouldn't be going through this. it's hard to try to explain the what ifs. I don't particularly like thinking about those scenarios either. i just don't know if me pretending that everything is okay is okay to do. this situation is very hard to cope with and I don't know what I should do. everytime I think about her I cry. every around me reminds me of her. when I'm alone, I think and think and it usually leads to me thinking about her and crying. it's a repeated cycle that seems like it will never end. which is why I always keep myself busy. being around people and things that distract me from thinking about this are like drugs. they numb the pain for awhile until they leave and the drug wears off. I'm not mentally stable right now nor will I be in 3 months. hopefully I will be better by then though. I just don't honk that people realize that these life changing events don't just fade
I can't wrap my mind around it. it's just mind boggling. i dont know. people say everything happens for a reason, but what if that wasn't supposed to happen. if those doctors didn't mess but on a simple procedure, my family and I wouldn't be going through this. it's hard to try to explain the what ifs. I don't particularly like thinking about those scenarios either. i just don't know if me pretending that everything is okay is okay to do. this situation is very hard to cope with and I don't know what I should do. everytime I think about her I cry. every around me reminds me of her. when I'm alone, I think and think and it usually leads to me thinking about her and crying. it's a repeated cycle that seems like it will never end. which is why I always keep myself busy. being around people and things that distract me from thinking about this are like drugs. they numb the pain for awhile until they leave and the drug wears off. I'm not mentally stable right now nor will I be in 3 months. hopefully I will be better by then though. I just don't honk that people realize that these life changing events don't just fade