God has always been a part of my life, but my relationship with Him was always extremely me-focused. Every week we went to church, that’s just what my family did. There never was a moment when I ever questioned God’s existence; He was just an everyday part of life. Even though I had wonderful parents and was incredibly blessed to be in a Christian home, I struggled from a young age with anxiety and panic attacks. As I grew older I became increasingly unhappy. My anxiety continued to increase. I struggled with social anxiety too. Around this time I began to wonder why I was remarkably unhappy compared to Amy Carmichael, Corrie Ten Boom, and Albert Schweitzer. Here I was living comfortably, and doing what I wanted to do, and I felt so utterly
