The feeling of doing something different for years, seems like you're not harming yourself in the big world of wonder and unknown. You have to step out of your comfort zone and do something unique to relate the good in the world. Growing from a child to a teenager it is challenging to do something you haven't done before in life. Having to think before you do is harder than you can relate to. All of my slow uncertain life, of coming to high school is extremely challenging. You never want to do anything different, because you feel like an outcast in a school of fish. Never knowing when you can raise your hand to ask a question, or even asking if you can clarify the statement again, can be tauntful because you're afraid.
One long dreadful evening
One long dreadful evening