I was THAT high school student. The one that committed to their dream university the second they were accepted. I visited about three other colleges but none of them stood out to me like Rutgers University did, it was love at first sight. Of course later on down the line I eventually researched the academic aspect of Rutgers because what really sold me was it’s social atmosphere: nearly 33,000 students, widely known football team, five campuses, crazy school spirit …show more content…
My lack of research on the types of academic opportunities Rutgers possessed for English Education majors started to bubble to the surface. Being away from home became a lot harder than I imagined. The classes were so large, sometimes 100 students, that I did not feel like a priority to any of my professors. I did not meet one person there that was studying to be a teacher also, which made me come to realize that Rutgers wasn 't exactly the best school for prospective teachers. I was constantly distracted and just found myself slipping more and more into a dark …show more content…
It was the hardest realization to come to and it took me a long time to even admit to myself that I wasn’t happy there nor was I striving academically. I was so afraid to tell people that I didn’t want to attend Rutgers anymore, especially my best friend . I had made everyone I knew so excited and proud of me that I was attending such a prestigious school. I felt ashamed and embarrassed that I wanted to go back home and possibly commute instead. What would my friends and family think of me now? I even contemplated going back to Rutgers just because I was worried about what everyone would think? Would they think I was crazy because I rather live at home than get “the college experience” of living away? Would they think I was even more crazy for wanting to attend a school much smaller with less students after talking nonstop about attending RU and how excited I was? I had so many crazy thoughts and found myself more concerned about everyone else, than myself.I knew I wasn’t myself at Rutgers and felt suffocated by this feeling. I didn 't feel like I would be able to grow into who I knew I could be there. So I came to conclusion to leave Rutgers and transfer to Georgian Court