I began singing, my voice filling up the room as the words quickly spilled out of my mouth and my heartbeat intensified. I stood there with sheer terror, wondering how the director thought of me, unsure if my talent and artistic choices would meet the standards. Suddenly, everything I had rehearsed hid somewhere out of reach and my mind frantically searched for the answers. “What are the next words?” “How am I supposed to be acting?” “What does my character feel?” As these questions floated through my mind I stood in front of the director, my expression entirely blank as I realized that no words were coming from my mouth.
I always knew I loved performing. From the peacefully repetitive pleas in ballet class to the awkward triumph of singing …show more content…
I began to realize that my failure in this audition had roots deeper than my theatrical abilities; I struggled with being unsure of myself in every aspect of life. I had issues with decisions ranging from what cereal to buy to what political party I agree most with. I would often analyze situations from multiple contrasting perspectives, leaving me stuck in the middle on most topics, unable to come to my own conclusion. The audition acted as a mirror, forcing myself to recognize the issues I faced. In order to make an impression, I had to be sure of myself, regardless of what my decision may be.
Initially, this process troubled me. How could I make confident choices knowing that another completely different option exists that has its own benefits? However, through trial and error, I discovered that there may not be one way to do things or think, and that concept is entirely acceptable. Exemplifying confidence did not necessarily mean eradicating my often circular thought processes; it meant trusting myself. It meant accepting myself and allowing myself to fail. It also meant being patient and willing to
I always knew I loved performing. From the peacefully repetitive pleas in ballet class to the awkward triumph of singing …show more content…
I began to realize that my failure in this audition had roots deeper than my theatrical abilities; I struggled with being unsure of myself in every aspect of life. I had issues with decisions ranging from what cereal to buy to what political party I agree most with. I would often analyze situations from multiple contrasting perspectives, leaving me stuck in the middle on most topics, unable to come to my own conclusion. The audition acted as a mirror, forcing myself to recognize the issues I faced. In order to make an impression, I had to be sure of myself, regardless of what my decision may be.
Initially, this process troubled me. How could I make confident choices knowing that another completely different option exists that has its own benefits? However, through trial and error, I discovered that there may not be one way to do things or think, and that concept is entirely acceptable. Exemplifying confidence did not necessarily mean eradicating my often circular thought processes; it meant trusting myself. It meant accepting myself and allowing myself to fail. It also meant being patient and willing to