College Admissions Essay: From My Fear Of Going To College

All I wanted to do when I was younger was grow up. I wanted to have a later bedtime, my own phone, my own car, and I wanted to be able to make my own decisions. Most importantly, I didn’t want to be treated like a child anymore. When I was younger, I felt like I never seemed to grow up quick enough. Now, I feel like I’m growing up too fast. Growing up used to excite me; now it terrifies me.
No, I don’t mean I’m scared to get married and have kids. I’m not scared to find a profession that motivates me and to discover my true potential. I mean I’m scared to go to college. I’m scared for when I come home from a stressful day and the only thing to greet me in my dorm is my bed. I’m scared for when I have to begin paying for my own things, and for the times when I spend my money irresponsibly and have to endure the consequences. I’m scared to become an actual independent in this intimidating world. I’m scared to go to college, because I’m scared of being alone.
I started noticing this fear when the topic of conversations at family gatherings and dinner parties shifted from what presents I got last Christmas to what I wanted my future to look …show more content…
At school, my friends discuss what colleges they applied to, and what furniture and decor they’re thinking of buying for their dorm. At home, my parents remind me to work on my college essay and to finish completing the Common App. The thing about the college application process is that there really isn’t an end. Once you finish one thing, it’s directly onto the next. Taking a break from reality is nonexistent while applying for colleges, which makes my situation even worse. All I want to do is get a breath of fresh air, but all I can do is continue drowning. Unlike my friends who dread the college process due to how much time it consumes, I avoid it because I don’t want to address the fact that I will be utterly alone in less than a year. I don’t want